…or that’s what it feels like! I thought i was going to chuck a party once Yasu was off to Tasmania, but after a few days that feeling has worn off and i’m lonely as hell. I don’t mind it so much during the day as i can go out and do stuff, but it’s at night when i go to bed and the place where Yasu usually is, is empty that i hate it.
I know, it’s strange you know. Yasu usually punches me in the head, kicks me and bashes me in the back of the head, rolls over on me, all while he is asleep. And i’m usually complaining about it. One time he bashed me in the ribs and actually cracked a few, i can’t tell you what agony that was, it took months to heal. But what i wouldn’t give just to be hit in the head tonight…haha. I just miss his whole presence.
After 5 years of marriage i started to sometimes think Yasu was a pain at times, so demanding of all my attention. But now, i have no one to give my attention to, i’m so used to giving it all to him. There’s only so many things i can do by myself, i’ve well and truly de-stressed and relaxed.
I know i said i was having a break but i think i’ll go nuts if i do that. I need to get it out so i will write. I called him tonight and broke down on the phone. I know it was hard for him and it kind of put pressure on him, because he couldn’t do anything from all the way over there. Then he told me he was supposed to be coming back on 27th but the boss over there said he probably can’t come back til another week after that, so i’m kinda sad. It feels like he’s away forever.
If anything i’ve learnt a lesson. I won’t take him for granted when he gets home!
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Happy blogoversary!
Oh…is it that time already? I didn’t even notice. Gee thanks!
Crossword puzzles. They’re the key.
The key to what? Not being lonely?
My mum is coming to stay with me from tomorrow so i should be ok. I also had some friends call me for moral support and we’ve organised some meet-ups so i’ll leave the crosswords until next week. Which brings me to the subject of Sudoku (which most people here pronounce as soh-doo-koh (somehow they get it mixed up), have you ever tried it? I am completely baffled by it!